This house has swallowed me whole and I keep waiting to be spat out for the bitter taste I leave behind but, here I am still heaving myself off the mattress. My hip moans a reminder of how fucking old I’ve become and wretched bones crack a giggle. I’d curse them too, along with Charlie for laying his ass right at my heels, always tripping me up, but I don’t. No matter how worthless they are,
they’ve kept me going
I gag at the smell of scrambled eggs, I never cared much for them but its one of the finer things they pack in the cardboard box. Sunday plates, heavy with forgive me money and all they offer me is spam and eggs. Who needs a brick of cheese anyway.
Do you know boy? I didn’t think so.
The dishes can wait
Dark brew and a disturbing view, Audrey Obnoxious sprawled over her flower bed. Her perennials, taunting me. Smiling and laughing like arrogant little gals, all glowing and happy, turning up their noses. When she’s gone, I’ll send my cocker over to give them a good watering.
That’ll shut them up
It’s ten a.m. now and Birdie makes her hourly visit, just for a minute she sings and reminds me to take my medicine. Same old nagging, day in and day out. Then she’s gone again, to sleep in a cradle of ticking hands.
While I watch mine wrinkle
The pit of my stomach clenches as I ring my hands, watching the mailman fill my box with money hungry vultures. Who would mourn me? Charlie?
He won’t be too far behind anyway, for chasing fast cars and pussy cats. Same reasons Judith left.
Yes, this house has swallowed me whole and its time now,
I must be leaving