screaming, tearing my eyes out,
feeling as if my stomach has cleaved to my spine,
gut-wrenching, feeling like my head will pop, like a champagne cork,
fear-sweat begins in the armpits, then the palms,
cold, beading on my forehead,
churning internally, panic sets in,
what have I done, now?
What have I done?!
Can I really be this stupid, moronic,
unable to see reality, utterly in a blacked-out state,
feeling, not feeling, being (barely) able to breathe,
not caring, not sharing, not daring,
not, Not, NOT!!!?
Hmm…don’t know quite where this came from, but it seems a little disturbed…